Here I go again... depression is killing me now. I really hate this feeling but I can't stop myself for being emotional again. It's just because I MISS MY HUSBAND, I MISS MY OLD LIFE, I MISS EVERYTHING. If I could turn back time, I'd take back the 9 years of being together as a happy go lucky couple. I'm not saying I'm not happy with my life now, pero mas masaya kami before. Maybe because we spent 9 years together at ngayon lang kami nagkahiwalay ng ganito kalayo. We were married for almost 8 months now, 5 months kami nagsama as husband and wife kaya siguro hindi sapat yun pinagsamahan namin as a married couple. Bigla na lang nagbago yun lifestyle namin. Especially now, I'm 5 month pregnant. Ang hirap ng malayo yun husband mo sayo. But you need to accept it kasi para yun sa future namin yun ginawa nya. Pero sana... Hindi pa ngayon... Baka sakali mas madali tanggapin kung hinayaan muna namin mag-grown yun relationship namin as married couple. Pero kung hindi nya tinanggap yun oppurtunity na yun possible hindi na yun mangyari... kaya... No regrets! Dumadating lang talaga sa point na I feel down and depressed. Oh lord, give me strength. I need to be strong :-(
2 comments:
Awww, Bear. Ang hirap, iniimagine ko pa lang. After being together for soooo long, biglang LDR kayo. Kung kelan kasal na kayo...
Pero syempre it's all for the best diba? And sabi mo nga, pinagdasal nyo ni Isko yung job opportunity na yun before diba?
You guys are still lucky, we have skype, facebook, etc na. Dati letters, phone calls and voice tape lang. :P
I know right bear, tanggap ko nastatus ngayon. My time lang talaga minsan malulungkot ka. Tiis na lang kami para kay baby at sa future namin. Hopefully next year magkakasama na kami 3 :-)
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