8.14.2011

Depression Strikes.

Here I go again... depression is killing me now. I really hate this feeling but I can't stop myself for being emotional again. It's just because I MISS MY HUSBAND, I MISS MY OLD LIFE, I MISS EVERYTHING. If I could turn back time, I'd take back the 9 years of being together as a happy go lucky couple. I'm not saying I'm not happy with my life now, pero mas masaya kami before. Maybe because we spent 9 years together at ngayon lang kami nagkahiwalay ng ganito kalayo. We were married for almost 8 months now, 5 months kami nagsama as husband and wife kaya siguro hindi sapat yun pinagsamahan namin as a married couple. Bigla na lang nagbago yun lifestyle namin. Especially now, I'm 5 month pregnant. Ang hirap ng malayo yun husband mo sayo. But you need to accept it kasi para yun sa future namin yun ginawa nya. Pero sana... Hindi pa ngayon... Baka sakali mas madali tanggapin kung hinayaan muna namin mag-grown yun relationship namin as married couple. Pero kung hindi nya tinanggap yun oppurtunity na yun possible hindi na yun mangyari... kaya... No regrets! Dumadating lang talaga sa point na I feel down and depressed. Oh lord, give me strength. I need to be strong :-(




My Twenty-7th.

Hi August! I've been busy for the past weeks and this entry is an overdue heehee. Anyways, I turned 27 last August 4. I/We had a loooong day. First stop: Ariel Javelosa Photography in Mandaluyong, we picked up our wedding albums/portrait and videos. Had lunch at Marina Seafood Resto in Mall of Asia, then went to DFA, I applied for passport (stress drilon) then back to MOA again. What a tiring birth-day for me but I'm happy and thankful :-)

Birthday greeting from husband. Thank you for the love. You made me smile despite the miles.

FOOD we ate. YUMMMY-LICIOUS :-)

Spent my 27th with Mom, Kuya Jon, Wen and Tarah biik :)

Husband's surprise gift. THANK YOUUUUU!

Happy Birthday to me. Thank you lord for giving me another year. Thank you for all the blessings. Thank you to my husband, family and friends who greeted me. XOXO